Shortstop Andrelton Simmons said depression and thoughts of suicide led to his decision to opt out of the Los Angeles Angels’ regular 2020 season. Tell the Orange County Register “The idea of ending the season in a bubble was too much for me.”
Simmons, who recently signed a $ 10.5 million one-year deal with the Minnesota Twins, chose to share his story in writing through a series of Twitter direct messages rather than verbally because “it’s still difficult to determine To articulate things or to be open. “
The Angels announced on September 22nd that Simmons had signed out of the last five regular season games. No additional information was provided, although Simmons said in a statement that it was “the best decision for me and my family”. At the time, the Angels remained mathematically in the running for the second wild card and second place in the American League West. While their chances of making the postseason were slim, league rules required that potential playoff teams begin quarantine this week in preparation for upcoming playoff games.
“It was mentally difficult for me to bring the thought of suicide to mind,” Simmons told the registry. “It was something I swore long ago that I would never consider it again. I was lucky enough to speak to a therapist which helped me let go of those thoughts. In the end, when many people still do Going through what most would think In such difficult times, the idea of ending the season in a bubble was too much for me. “
Simmons played in just 30 games in the shortened regular season and also missed the time due to an ankle injuring himself for the third time in a row. He told the register it was difficult to focus on baseball when so many people were grappling with the COVID-19 pandemic.
“It was the first time I drove around Oakland and saw some of the shops and restaurants that were trying to stay open with all of the homeless camping out,” he said. “It really hit me there.”
Simmons began communicating with a therapist, but his hesitation about entering a playoff bubble persisted.
“I was really sad about how much I heard about the death toll and how smaller companies went out of business, and I was a little depressed about how the impact of all the new rules and fears would affect people’s livelihoods and how unrelated people became, “he said.
Simmons told the registry that he was not informed of his reasons for the rejection at this point, “because I don’t like the idea of having to explain every detail of my life” and “was afraid of people judging and my story twist. “” But he said he changed his mind when he realized that being open about his situation could help others who are struggling.
Information from Alden Gonzalez of ESPN was used in this report.